And it goes "Thump Thump Thump"

Poop.


"But I want to go further than that. I want to be closer.. to you."

"No way will I ever bring my barriers down. I will never be so stupid."

"But there's something I keep longing for. Every damn day."

"If I get confused, I may never talk to you again. I can never give my heart out."

" That's the first thing I'm gonna do when I see you. "

"I would even kiss the cleaner - I don't have to like her - I just like kissing."

I have to figure out the truth from the lies. And I need to do it soon. Before it's too late..



Please don't play with me. Please. If you really mean what you say, you're gonna have to prove it to me.

Death and Dying

Maybe I'm in denial. Maybe the tears will come later.
Maybe in 3 months when I'm in Perth watching her wither away will I start to feel immensely.


For now.. I think I'll go for a mammogram. Just in case.

Ring Ring..

Oh Hi..

It's been a while, hey?
Yes I'm good. And yourself? Great!

*silence*

Voiceover: There was a time when I would have been thrilled to hear from you - I would have probably tried to engage you in a witty conversation (maybe flirt a little) and be eager to hear where you're at. Hmm. Not anymore though.
Well you see.. you had my heart at some point in time. But you broke it. More than broke it. You crushed it to dust. And I bled. I mourned and mourned for you until I thought I would just die from it. Yadda Yadda.
But I didn't die -Insert Name Here-, I got over you and moved on with my life (that was a while back in case you didn't know).
I kinda like who I am now and there's no going back for me. So if you're thinking differently, you're really wasting your time.

You missed me huh? Hmm. I wonder what I should have for dinner..
Listen I'm going out now so I'll catch you around? Okay. Bye!

Voiceover: You won't ever have me again. And what you won't have - what you tossed aside - would have nearly been the best thing in your life. And no that's not my ego talking and you know it don't ya? Which is probably why you keep playing these games. But I refuse to take the bait this time. I'm actually quite bored and uninterested - so, without sounding too bitchy, go find someone else.