Friday, July 14, 2006

Devil's Dance

I feel like I’m setting myself up for failure.

When it comes to love or relationships.. I turn into pus. Yes pus. A pustule of emotion that explodes into a festering cesspool of disaster.
I am not kidding. I feel every single emotion capable of feeling. But most of the time, I just feel scared. That kind of bone-chilling gut wrenching scared.
And the worst part is I know inevitably, I’m causing my own failure.

I feel like I’m on shaky ground. I read into every single action I possibly can. I want to spare myself some short of rude shock that I feel is just waiting to happen.

This crazy haunting feeling.

I feel like running.

I just feel like curling up in bed. Not stepping outside anymore.