Monday, August 07, 2006

We three ladies

Here are the pics I promised... I still stand by what I say.. I'm NOT a photogenic person...

Next up will be pics of me with my tied up (I look really different like that ya know? Haha.. and maybe even with my specs on! *gasps*)

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Random Survey #1

what is the geekiest part of your music collection?
* I don't think any of my music is geeky… OH! I have the macarena CD… bought that ages ago! It’s such an annoying song.

what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
* Hmmm.. most of the time I make garlic bread, ravioli or eat chocolate.

what is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
* Erm… I’ve really cried for The Passion Of Christ, Powder and Rabbit Proof Fence.

if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
* Hmmm…plastic surgery? I’m not sure. But I’d wanna do my teeth. And clear my skin.

do you have a completely irrational fear?* Irrational? I don’t think so. There’s a reason behind my fears.. I have plenty.

what is a physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
* Cracking my knuckles and fidgeting, looking away or babbling incoherently.

do you know anyone famous?
* Yes actually.. Sabbie is friends with Paul Christopher Twohill.. (this Singapore Idol finalist), they used to go to catechism and church together. I got introduced to him. So yeah! I know someone famous.

describe your bed.
* A double twin bed with Snuggles (my teddy-bear), Eeyore (stuffed animal from Pooh cartoon), a red heart squishy pillow and three fat adorable pillows.

do you know how to play poker?
* Yes.. very well I think.

what do you carry with you at all times?
* Besides my clothes… my ring. It’s this black hematite iron ore ring that I fell in love with. I’ve grown attached to it.

what do you miss most about being little?
* Little? Hmm.. I can’t think of anything… maybe playing with my cousins.. having quite good relationships with my uncles and aunts…

are you happy with your given name?
* Actually yeah.. I like my name. It’s beautiful. Seraphina Lea (forgetting the surname).
It is the feminine form of the Late Latin name Seraphinus, derived from the biblical word seraphim which was Hebrew in origin and meant "fiery ones". The seraphim were an order of angels, having six wings each; were the most powerful angels.
And Lea, it’s meaning is a mythological goddess of canoe builders.
So basically my name has powerful meanings.. fiery angels and goddess. You feel strong with it.

how much money would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
*A whole year? Well… maybe half a million dollars… or a million. I need the internet.

what color is your bedroom?
* White walls… with brown blinds and brown and cream bedsheets.

what was the last song you listened to?
* One Night – The Corrs

have you ever been in a play?* Yes.

do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
* I don’t always like myself.. I get angry with myself but yeah I believe in myself bery strongly.

do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
* Annoy me? No! It makes me sad..

do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
* Yes I think I’m a nice person.

do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend than your friends?
* I'm single.

whats one thing you wish you could do but can't?
* Hmmm.. there’s so many! I wish I could cook any dish in the world.. I’d cook up a storm for myself.. I wish I could kiss someone… but I know I can’t ever. And also I think I might have forgotten.. actually I don't think so. Nevermind. Stick to the cooking part.

what is your ideal marriage location?
* I don’t have one…

whats one instrument you wish you could play?
* No biggie.. the piano.

something you love and hate?* A certain someone. And maybe at times food.

what kind of bedding do you use?
* Errm.. I have no idea!

do you tell your friends about your sex life?
* What sex life??

whats one language you want to learn
* Italian or French

what do you order at a bar?
* If I did.. it’d either be a margarita or a vodka lime or vodka redbull… or Baileys! Yum..

have you ever pierced your body parts?
* Just my ears.. nothing else

do you have any tattoos?
* Nope. And I don’t want one.. at least not a permanent one.

would you admit to getting plastic surgery if confronted?
* Probably not.

do you drive stick?
* Huh?

whats one trait you hate in a person?
* Someone who’s obnoxious I suppose.

what kind of watch do you wear?
* I don’t have one… my previous one broke.. I should get one..

most frivilous purchase?
* Probably my boots.

do you consider yourself materialistic?
* Not so much but I do wish I had certain things.. it’s hard not being rich because there was a time (when I was small) when I could get practically anything I wanted.. at least most things.

what do you cook best?
* Erm… I’m not sure! Briyani? Ravioli?

favorite writing instrument?
* Dark blue medium ball-point pen.

do you prefer to blend in or stand out?
* Mostly, blend in but I admit.. I like being noticed.

do you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
* Like a guy? Well.. I do wear jeans and pants.. but I never look masculine…

what is one car you will never buy?
* Hmmm.. a commodore?

what kind of books do you like to read?
* Anything that makes you think.. philosophical, psychological or thrilling, adventure, suspense.. crime puzzling and *cough* a little romance.

if you won the lottery, what would you do?
* Pay my mom’s credit card bill (it’s not so much but I’d clear her debts if she has any), pay for my brother’s, my sister’s and my own education. And then after that buy a house. It depends on how much I win.. if there’s enough, I’ll buy a small house for my mom.

burial or cremation?
* Eww.. erm.. cremation.. I’d rather by burned than have maggots eat my body.. eww.. what a thought!

what's one thing you are a sore loser at?
* errr, hmmmm grades?

if you don't like a person, how do you show it?
* Haha.. oh they’ll know. My body vibe and language is enough.. but yeah I usually am stiff and avoiding..

do you cry in front of your friends?
* I have done so.. to my closest friends.

what kind of first impression do you think you give people?
* Erm.. nice but very distant? Cautious? Confident but untrusting?

whats one thing you like to do alone?* Bathe! *laughs* Ermm.. study..

are you a giver or a taker?
* Both I suppose.. in friendships… in relationships.. it depends.. I find it easier to give than to receive.. especially in intimacy..

what have you stolen before?
* A pen.

do you ever have to beg?
* Sometimes I beg Sabbie to go to Westfield with me..

have you ever done any illegal drugs?
* Nope.

do you think you're cute?
* Hmph. I’m told too many times.

do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
* I think I’ve done so in front of Shu.. not sure about Beckie.. but yeah.. I don’t think I have a problem with it.. as long as my undies stay on.

whats the most painful experience you've ever had?
* Can’t decide which one. All of them hurt but in different ways.

favorite communication method?
* I prefer face-to-face communication. I like to look into the person’s eyes or face when I’m talking to them.

Stupid Girls

I really can’t deny who and what I am. But you know, I have my weird quirks too. I’m not that smooth type of girl. I run into poles, fall off stairs sometimes even chairs, I run into mirror glass doors not realising that they were there – I’m very accident-prone.
I’m not the dainty and graceful female. I really don’t have it all together.
But I don’t ACT stupid.

I intimidate people, or so my friend says.
I’m much too “confident and vocal and in control”. It seems that Australian girls, or women I should say, are afraid of being smart. I couldn’t understand it for the past few days. Why would anyone want to act stupid? Isn’t being smart so worthwhile, and in itself so sexy?
Sometimes in lectures, some silly girl would make such a stupid comment and everyone would laugh at the stupidity of it. The lecturer would sigh a little – having the look of “Couldn’t have expected any more of you anyway”, guys would guffaw at it and attempt to teach the girl, enlighten her and you could practically see the male egos puffing up.
It’s disgusting.

But don’t get me wrong. There are smart girls in my university. Just that these girls are usually from overseas.

Maybe girls do it – look beautiful and act stupid – to attract guys, attract attention. I mean hey, with Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie out there (maybe even Britney Spears and Jessica Simpson), it’s probably the “in” thing anyway.
Creating a cultural icon out of someone who goes “I’m stupid, isn’t it cute” makes me want to throw daggers. I feel like saying to them “People didn’t fight for women rights (some are still fighting) just so that you can start telling women it’s fun to be stupid. Saying that to young women, liitle girls? It’s not acceptable.

Maybe I shouldn’t blame these celebrities so much. One could argue that they didn’t create this, it’s been going on for ages ever since Marilyn Monroe. Maybe it’s her fault.
Or maybe it goes deeper than that.

Think back.
When you were a little girl or boy, how did your aunties and uncles treat you?
They’d look at the little girl and in hushed tones and carrying her as though she was glass, would probably say “Aww.. isn’t she beautiful? She’s an angel.. She’s going to be a heartbreaker.. blah blah “ You get the idea. They’d buy dolls and tea-sets for her.
Whereas for little boys, they’re somewhat more rougher, louder and would probably buy all those “smart” toys for them… and their dreams of them would be all in the “smart” kinda jobs.
Maybe… just maybe, it’s in this early stage that creates some sort of “image” that we’re supposed to be or we’re given an idea or what we should be to make others “appreciate or notice” you.

I don’t know. Maybe I’m grasping at straws here.

I’m reading this book now “Falling in Love – Why we choose the lovers we choose” by Ayala Malach Pines. I’m loving it. It’s so profound and I find a lot of what I’m reading true.
The author is a clinical, social and organizational psychologist. Yes, I know.. you may be wondering what the hell is wrong with me. One minute I’m trashing psychologists and the next I’m reading something written by them.
I will admit, I am biased and probably wrong about my whole “idea” about them. Just because I’ve encountered one bad experience doesn’t mean that they’re all trash or the subject itself is trash. Maybe they’re not ALL right… but there is some truth in what they’re studying or saying. And I respect that. I respect them.

And I realise now… it is not by accident that we fall in love with the people we choose.

Anyway, I’ve been quite busy.
In other mundane news, I’ve revamped my room and I’m quite happy with the result. I have a new dresser and chairs. And… I’ve taken a couple of nice pics with my mom and sis… I’ll post them up soon.

Till then.. I’m going to have to study for my Finance Test. Heh.. I beat Anton in the previous one and he’s determined to do better.. and beat me. Hehehe. I can’t let that happen.