Mergence of Many

I've done quite a fair bit for the past week. Or two.
I've booked flights to the Gold Coast in July (woot!) to meet my two.. what can I even call them? Best Friends? Soulmates? Pieces of my heart? Absolutely goofy clowns? Jumping Jacks? Somehow none of these words can quite express how I feel and regard them as. So yea. I'm meeting Beckie and Shu in July.

I've added Don into my friendster list. I've known about his profile for about a year and I never quite wanted to add him. In retrospect, I was afraid. Afraid of wanting him, afraid of merging him into my life, merging him into my friends indirectly. And it's weird that now the two "D"s, the two guys, that have made a profound (either good or bad, in fact both) impact on me are connected. It feels... weird. And they both know a little about each other. I don't quite know what to say.
And what do I say in a testimonial anyway? Hey, this is my first love, the guy that broke my heart, the one whom I shared my first kiss, the one who introduced me to Redbull, the one I love and the one I don't quite want. The one whose goofy chuckle just makes me wanna kiss him.
Even after everything, he's so special to me. And I don't know if I wanna say that in a testimonial. I don't know if I wanna even write a testimonal. Maybe I'll wait for him to make the move. Besides, he has his own share of girls fawning over him. Yes yes. You detect a hint of jealousy and I'm quite amused by my own jealousy.
I don't have to say anything. I think he knows how I feel.
Back then Don, you had a habit of pretending to have no idea what I was talking about if what I was getting at was at all complicated or subtle. Later this playing-dumb strategy, which began as gentle teasing, warped into a darker incapacity to grasp what I was getting at not because it was abstruse but because it was all too clear and you didn't want it to be so.

Is this how first loves are supposed to be? That you always regard them this way?

I've always watched Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End. I loved it. It was bigger and better than ever. And right now I'd wanna go on a date with both Jack Sparrow and Will Turner at the same time, together! Heh. I have wicked thoughts.

And I'm also reading a really really good book. Sidney Poitier's Measure of A Man.
It is becoming one of my few favourites and honestly I would like to meet a guy who has read this book and who has taken its few yet massively important lessons to heart.

For now, life is busy and occupied. I can't wait for it to be filled with rollercoaster rides and surrounded by the Looneys. And I don't just mean the cartoon ones.