Into dust

I've been having weird dreams lately.
In one, I was in my old house with my mom, brother, sister, Uncle Eddie, Shu and Beckie. And each were taking turns to get possessed and I remember being freaked out and telling my brother not to believe the nonsense that were coming out of their mouths.. when he suddenly turned to me with his eyes red and this sick grin on his face. I don't remember much of it, but I woke feeling very disturbed.
Then last night, I had a dream that Shu, Beckie and I were playing this "Bubble" game arcade thing where the biggest bubble at the end of 3 minutes win. At the beginning, it was Beckie's that was the biggest (hers was pink), followed by mine (purple) and Shu's the smallest(orange). We kept picking on Shu, destroying her bubble by sucking the air out of it when suddenly Shu persuades me with a Snickers bar to help her. I change sides! And we started attacking Beckie and at the end of the 3 minutes, Beckie's the smallest. Then I wake up.

Weird.

On another note.

What is it with people? Do they expect you to be their punching bag and let you be target to snappish behaviour just because they're having a headache? Does that give them any right to behave that way?
It's funny how our relationship can come crashing down the drain by just a few words that she throws out.

I may be guilty of a lot of things, but not of being selfish. I really don't think so. Yeah I know I may be difficult or stubborn or whatever, there are a lot flaws in me, but I honestly don't think selfish is one of them. At least not my whole life, as you said so. Just because I say 'no' (and I have every right to do so) doesn't mean that I am. Am I supposed to keep saying yes to every of your whims and fancies?
I've always thought of her and of course him and have tried my best to give them what they should have. I know what I think and I know deep down who I am and what I'm guilty of.
I don't have to prove to you what I am or am not.

Maybe I should just leave things the way it is. I don't want to have to try so hard and have myself be put through such pain and caustic words. It really isn't worth it. I don't mind fighting. I know every relationship or friendship goes through such rough spots, but I don't think it should be this way and I shouldn't have to put up with this.The buck stops here.